In short, I acknowledged the amount of hard work and sacrifice it would have taken to climb to the top and realized that the lifestyle and accolades around that level of success weren't going to be worth the cost.
I had a rigorous daily practice routine, spent my weekends attending day-long local tournaments, and spent my vacations traveling to national tournaments just to grind out in front of a CRT for hours on end. It was mentally, physically, and emotionally incredibly taxing.
Aside from that, I felt that I had accomplished what I had wanted to do. I was able to play and hold my own against some of the best players of all time. Mang0, Mew2King, PPMD, Armada, Axe, Shroomed, SFAT, PewPewU, Crush, Zain, Ken, SilentSpectre, etc. I took sets from a few top players, was a hit away from taking sets from others, and was well received by my idols for the perspective and ideas I brought to the game.
Despite a rough start and some beef with a has-been community figure, I was able to reclaim my name and become a force in Northern California and a national threat.
Also was power ranked in NorCal in 2017 at 20th and then 17th