In short, I acknowledged the amount of hard work and sacrifice it would have taken to climb to the top and realized that the lifestyle and accolades around that level of success weren't going to be worth the cost.
Aside from that, I felt that I had accomplished what I had wanted to do. I was able to play and hold my own against some of the best players of all time. Mang0, Mew2King, PPMD, Armada, Axe, Shroomed, SFAT, PewPewU, Crush, Zain, Ken, SilentSpectre, etc. I took sets from a few top players, was a hit away from taking sets from others, and was well received by my idols for the perspective and ideas I brought to the game.
At my peak I was power ranked in NorCal at 20th and 17th during 2017, placed 65th at two of the biggest national melee tournaments of all time, and placed 97th at the biggest tournament of all time.